Dear Muse, it is I again.

Dear Muse,

I fail you

I know.

I flail in my misery

I cannot write of anything else.

I know

You deem me unworthy

Of your graces…

Such is my demanding heart.

Such are her raw wounds.

In joy you are dismissed

In pain you are forgot

Only art seeks your beauty.

But I am no artist

I am but a slave to life’s

Twists and turns

And for what my soul yearns.

Image source: Muse plaque

Ancient Sculpture Gallery

Heart-seek

Just wait you say

Don’t give your heart away

Only to have it given back

Even less pure than it was before.

But

Why must I give myself to whom

You deem worthy

But I see lack in.

Should I see only with my eyes

And not with my heart?

A lie is a lie is a lie…

He typed….

“I’m sorry you feel that way

I’m sorry for all the bad memories it brought forth

All the pain you had before

All the doubt that it provokes”

He quickly texted…

“But you are being paranoid

Quite overly analytical

Unnecessarily critical”

I have made my assumptions.

I replied

But your reasoning just confirms them…

A lie is a lie is a lie

It doesn’t change a thing for me

Liebster Blog Award

I would like to thank Dixitmrityunjay from September heart-to-hearts
for nominating me for this award. I admire how nuanced his work is and how I have enjoyed reading and commenting on it often. He certainly deserves this award and was very kind to have nominated me.

Here are the rules for this award !!

  • Thank the blogger who nominated you, and provide a link to their blog
  • Answer the 11 questions given to you
  • Nominate 11 other bloggers
  • Ask your nominees 11 questions
  • Notify your nominees once you have uploaded your post

Answers to Questions asked by Dixitmrityunjay

Is blogging your profession or just a hobby if yes then would you mind making it as a source of income in future?
It is a hobby, I don’t think it is something possible seeing how many enormously talented work is shared here but not necessarily published. Also since the libraries are closed its my source of reading.

Name your favorite genres of music and your favorite song in each genre.
Classical: Masquerade Waltz by Aram Khachaturian
Instrumental: Incredible Bongo Band
International : too many to list, anything that sounds good to me whatever the language
Golden Hits: “I Want To Know What Love is”- Foreigner

How do you attract new readers? Describe the methods you’ve used and their impact on site traffic?
I don’t really know how to do this, the most I’ve done is comment and like their posts and they return the favour at times.

Do you have any pet peeves?
Dishonesty, Spreading rumours, lack of accountability

Which two posts from my blog do you like the most and why?
Sunset, shadow of the day, ( I love poems about nature and sunsets are the best) Haiku # 21 (Really nothing sums up happiness more than the simple pleasures that not all are blessed with).

What piece of writing are you the most proud of?
I’m proud of the poem I wrote for my very good friend’s wedding. I was so happy they asked me to read it at the reception.

What’s an irrational fear you have?
I’m afraid of spiders.

What is your favorite color?
If it’s not obvious: Blue…indigo,royal blue, sky blue, periwinkle, electric blue,

Name your favorite artists and your favorite artworks.
Vincent Van Gogh, Renoir, Georgia O’Keefe’s flowers. I’m a huge fan of landscape art, floral art, and mosaics and motif art.

If for a day you get some super powers then which super power would it be?
Go back in time. I would change decisions I made.

Presently, what brings you the most joy in life?
Enjoying time chilling with my family. Trying new recipes. Staying in touch with my friends.

My Nominees are as follows:

  1. Sheree
  2. Timsmind390256655
  3. Agnecha
  4. Ramarathnam R
  5. In Mind and Out
  6. Macalder02
  7. Daneelyunus
  8. Lignum Draco
  9. Miishuangmu
  10. Penumbra Haiku
  11. Whatsonsidsmind

My Questions for the Nominees:

  1. If you could travel to a destination you have never been before, what would it be?
  2. What is one dish you love to eat but can’t be bothered to cook?
  3. What is your favourite/often used phrase?
  4. Who was your favourite teacher and why?
  5. Share a scenic photo/landscape artwork (one you have taken/created or one you have seen on the net) that made you feel happy, thoughtful or amazed.

Ideal Inspiration Blogger Award

Hello all, it really feels good to be back blogging and discovering new writers and amazing talent!

I would like to thank Ekanthika from beingproductiveliving.home.blog https://wp.me/pbRJz8-2e very much for this nomination.

Ideal inspiration blogger award is a non official Award to the bloggers as wonderful work on their blog. These awards can help motivate and encourage bloggers.

Rules:

• Thank the person who has nominated you and provide a link back to his/her blog.

• Answer their questions.

• Nominate up to 9 other bloggers and ask them 5 new questions.

• Notify the nominees through their blog by visiting and commenting on their blog.

• List the rules and display the “Ideal Inspiration Blogger Award” logo.

• Provide the link to the Award creator, like/. https://idealinspiration.blog

Questions from Ekanthika

1) You aspire to become..?

I aspire to become even more skilled, knowledgeable, understanding, compassionate and wise in my profession.

2) Your source of motivation?

My source of motivation is my desire to exercise the skills I learned in my uni years and a love for literature. I also always wished I was creative in music or visual art or drama…so I appreciate those arts and practice the art of writing.

3) Your favourite local dish?

Interesting question…I actually love international cuisine and my ethnic cuisine moreso than the local Canadian cuisine….but I guess I would say…crispy fries with ketchup and sriracha mayo sauce.

4) Your favourite movie/ book?

This is a really tough one to narrow down so I’ll go by the latest I’ve seen and read. “Knives Out” was a movie I enjoyed immensely and the last book I would deem as a fave would have to be “The Unbearable Lightness of Being” by Milan Kundera.

5) Your ideal vacation spot?

My ideal vacation spot would be somewhere warm and tropical, being born in such a clime as Malaysia and then traversing the globe to be in the True North has me often feeling nostalgic.

Nominees (This was really tough to choose but this is who all I chose this time):

My Questions for the Nominees:

  1. What have you learned about yourself in this present time?
  2. What do you do to unwind/destress/relax?
  3. What is your favourite staycation destination?
  4. Who is your favourite artist or what is your favourite artwork?
  5. What would you say is your best quality/characteristc/ability/talent?

I built a house in the sky

I built a house in the sky

I painted it all the colours

of a twilight night.

I came to see it
whenever I could.

When
I pushed open
the door…

oftentimes
I fell right through.

Many a time
it locked me out.

And at times it locked me in,
but sometimes it left the door ajar.

I wished to walk upon
its clouded tiles.

To call it my heart…my home.

But a house built in the sky

Would brace and buckle

crumble and break…

I built a little house in the sky

And it remains…

behind my dreaming eyes.

Renewed from 2012