at times

i wish patience wasn’t a virtue

that want wasn’t so wanton at times

that love truly at times just frustrates and disappoints

that missing someone could make you want to say goodbye

if only to stop missing them so badly

and realize the very next moment

the reason you want to leave

is to escape the pain of being left

leading alone

i’m afraid of leaving

and leading alone

following that Freedom

that encompasses

everything that i want

but seems the

farthest away from my grasp.

Courage urges me on

and Fear remains elusive

Guidance comes and goes

yet the vast unknown

overshadows my faltering steps

as i stumble after Chance.