I feel like i lost what i used to be…
My easy optimism
finding joy in all things
The sunrise, the clouds, the flowers, the warmth, the music
Sharing a smile with a passer-by
Seeing the love within a couple, a family, that indelible joy of a child
That golden warm feeling of gratefulness
Being happy because it’s so necessary
And now….
I feel like i lost what i used to be…
of tender touches
and shyly missed much-es
of reliving
smile-tugging memory patches
of remembering
sweet brushes
of awaiting
anticipated
bated breath catches
and creating
scenes
drenched
with wanting
new and known
to be awakened
in reality
the breath
i held for so long
now drags
convulsively
through my lungs
a pent-up inner shudder
rushingly dissipates
as i choke on tears
of relief
and happy disbelief
intotheindigo 