it will only get better more happiness, more peace, more bliss more of that oft searched forgetfulness you can refuse anytime you want now, later, tomorrow, did you not refuse yesterday? then do just quit another day
you deserve it for sure you do i know you do
just once then last time the very last time i will not ask again ever this is the last time ever
what is there to be worried about? what consequence? what isn’t without consequence?
one life to live one addiction to relive find relief now find reprieve
afloat if for a minute a moment in this lifetime grateful…no no not yet no now just plainly resentful that again i am aground flung into the glaring spotlight a grudging contestant stuck losing badly in this waiting game