Until your reasons sounded like excuses
With new hope for us and our lives
For you to cross your hurdles until they became the ones you created
Unwaveringly suffering from how i was the one impeding us
Wholeheartedly defending you, protecting you from all my concerns
Enclosing myself in anxiety, hiding away from reality, my instincts, my gut all screaming something’s wrong
Never letting anyone in so they wouldn’t know what we were going through because i thought you were fragile
I waited through it all
And got nothing in return
I waited until
I felt like the world was against us
But then admitted to myself
That it was only you against us.
And now I’m here.
Full of regret for being
so in denial,
But a tiny part of me is still waiting
For you to want to prove I’m wrong
So how f***ed is that?