Circumstances give us
A safeholding.
A time to realize and release
Before we in dive in deeper.
A space to consider.
A begrudged barrier that allows us to see:
If things are meant to be.
Circumstances give us
A safeholding.
A time to realize and release
Before we in dive in deeper.
A space to consider.
A begrudged barrier that allows us to see:
If things are meant to be.
For every wish that petulantly pouts upon my lips…
There is a blessing that soothes away the questioning
But the heart is ever young and ever ardent in its tantrums
And yet Time patiently guides
And shows in glimpses
The mystery
Of why things happened
The way they did.
However way i say it
It sounds presumptious
In reality:
a burdensome burden
All the praise
All the stifling pity
The not so quiet questioning
Sweet, kind, cheerful, helpful, loving
But alone
What are we missing?
What are we not seeing?
What a sad fate
Tsk tsk tsk.
without being told
there awaits
a curiosity
sought
and often
beguilingly bought
in the very
palm of your
hand
held tremblingly
of bridges and roads
and paths engraved
of grooved hills and narrowly lined valleys
of promises and preening predictions
and lengths that improve longevity
but what use of this fortune without the digits
to grasp it?
there is a yearnful parting
that never came to be
we search for it without notice
whether or not an illusion
never knowing if each met
will ever be the ONE
as understudys eager to be betrayed as us.
two strangers never encountered
convinced they will know:
innately, irrevocably
and as they contemplate thus
seemingly guaranteed in deed
each pass the other
remaining one less unknown.
an ender should not dread the end
reaper of all, you sowed once too
a guide for the died
what fear is there
for the destined real?
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you will be summoned
you will appear
be drawn to my wavering soul
suspended above my shallow shell
and dear death
once ago
and once again
become
enfleshed
i hear your voice
that off key humming
that soft yet deep toned
murmuring
that distinct chuckle
that sweet nothing filled echo
i strain to hear you
to make it real
to place it in my time
but just as always
you go silent
sensing you have
come too near
what keeps you away?
you know i await
that fated chance
not promised
no, not at all
but dreamt of
and longed for
but thought of
and prayed for
and kept
within my
wounded self
to give the
emptiness
some company
the only way that you could know more than
all that i have captured from fleeting visions
from memories that do not belong to me
is to catch me falling within the ticking reality
and make them flawfully fated
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deja vus warned of familiarity
of letting conscious control leave
lived and seen through unmisted eyes
themselves dreamy bittersweet blinks
no one must know
but you and i and our moments
this is all she has brought
she who has made my son smile
this is may be the happiest moment of his life
is the saddest realization of mine
i do not want them all laid in a row
when have i ever walked down such a perfect path?
they must be fingered and bit and tasted and tossed
and smashed as what all sweetness has been for me
i take one and another
and pry the very ones from his little curled fist
i take and take and relish the tears which he will cry
for the mother who could not give him the chance to smile
he cries out loud in disbelief
to have his gift wrenched away
when he has given and given and given
all that was never supposed to be taken from him
my child is too a chocolate
devoured hungrily by me
fearing that this one too like all the rest of mine
will be snatched and eaten by time and tragedy