will i?

i feel the edge threatening to crumble off

asking what will i do when my feet touch air?

will i reach for land or will i leap?

i feel my being breaking apart inside

asking will i give up or harden?

will i reach up or will i fall down?

i feel my heart letting go

asking will i trust it again

or will i just let it rot and bloat?

will i let it soar again or pin it to its place?

the past has passed

i know you search me with your eyes

and wonder why my love waxes and wanes

why i accept your love with a haunted wounded wavering

…the past has passed and the scars have all but healed…

…the past has passed and its lessons learned…

…the past has passed and all those who did not stay are not missed…

and yet i and my soul remain in the clutches of its grasp….

lost eyes

lost eyes
lend a smile
that slips itself
lightly on my lips

letting me forget
the lonely world

reminding me how far away you are
and how close your sweet memory
remains with me

i shake my head
and tell myself “this is no good…”

to think of one who has
so easily forgotten
of all that has gone by

this is my downfall.

for every moment
i yearn
for you and your all

i fall into the trap
of keeping you alive…

until lost eyes

uncloud

clearly knowing

that they would rather

be blind

with the glimpses

of your once

sweet wanting.