Petits XIII

one day you’re going to catch on

step back and pause

and know your inkling was right all along

***

tainted i agree

and stained indelibly 

as much as i do

to out its residue

it bleeds it bleeds

it seeps into my very being

***

don’t believe in me

i’ll only let you down

don’t profess your trust

i’ll fall prey to suspicious thoughts

don’t hold out your hand

i just may brush it away

don’t uphold me in any way

i just might drag you down with me

 

 

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odd leveler

why do i sigh (a little relieved)

when fear comes tumbling out of your mouth

your urgent words collide into each other

in their haste to express what i hardly have the courage to sum up

and therefore reply with silence

(and a deeply quiet marvel)

at how insecurity is such an odd leveler

an overlooked equaler

and so i know now

and so i know now

but before

i could only accumulate

reasons that were true before

and though they were not given by you

they spoke for you in your absence

until your words came to my heed

until your voice came like a soothing balm

of what you thought was true

of what you hoped i knew

but what i dared not believe

until it came from you

 

fooler fooled

for every deception

there comes a moment

of unwillingness

a moment of unclarity

where whatever falseness

lays in wait to be discovered

there hides the revelation

that the fooler will become the fooled

that the convincer will become convinced

to put his contrivances aside

and believe in something

that would never make sense out loud.

humanize me

humanize me

so that i too can spend

my life worrying over

the pursuit green paper.

humanize me

so that i too can fight

battles over borders

not even visible in air.

humanize me

so that i too can know

fellows are only human

when they are not my enemy.

humanize me

so that i too can see

myself as another

who is just a better copy of me.

humanize me

so that i too shall know

of happiness pursued

but never attained…