i feel the edge threatening to crumble off
asking what will i do when my feet touch air?
will i reach for land or will i leap?
i feel my being breaking apart inside
asking will i give up or harden?
will i reach up or will i fall down?
i feel my heart letting go
asking will i trust it again
or will i just let it rot and bloat?
will i let it soar again or pin it to its place?
i let go
why must you still not do so?
i let go with so much
what is it for you with nothing
to leave me be…
why is it i cannot close my eyes and be without you
but you have cut me off
and still bind me to your will.
as i stare searching reliving ever without release
you live and leave me
staring ever after you.
is this always to be?
i reach and fall
you need not reach
and have no way to fall.
you care not knowing i can not but care
yet i let it go
i let it all go
so to not let go