Dear Amma

Dear Amma,

i look at you sometimes

And it scares me how selfless you are.

How much you are able to sacrifice.

How much you are able to forgive.

And it scares me because you’ve set the bar so high.

But i also know i have no mind to surpass it.

Because there’s a part of me that understands that relentless joy from giving of myself.

But i also know the dearth of receiving.

i see you settle and make peace with yourself.

And i thought i could too.

But sometimes i look at you

And i’m scared with what you don’t know.

i’m scared of what i know i would do.

*Amma is mom in Tamil