i have never

i have never

lay upon the roadside and cried for sleep
pleaded for water or whimpered for a meal
walked farther than far and still walked some more
bickered for space and frowned at innocent smiles

said words i did not believe
swore oaths i did not comprehend

felt pity drowning within myself
felt fright in sharing
guilt for still caring
accused innocent lives to continue with mine

i thought my nevers would last,but they betrayed me…

my never evers have become my now.