too blurred by

it’s happened

yet it seems all too blurred by

to commemorate

and though the elation caught

in snatches and relief-laden smiles

i feel again swept up

by the tide

its roiling cobalt crests

wait in kind to wash and strew

the shore of my weary laden mind

 

 

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tested

i sought prayer

and found relief

from the testing

that i unbeknownst

was asking for

the more i prayed

away my tears

the more i uttered heartfully

the more i found reason

to utter still more beseechingly

for the mercy that had not reached its time to be received

Addiction’s call

it will only get better
more happiness, more peace, more bliss
more of that oft searched forgetfulness
you can refuse anytime you want
now, later, tomorrow,
did you not refuse yesterday?
then do just quit another day

you deserve it
for sure you do
i know you do

just once then
last time
the very last time
i will not ask again
ever
this is the last time
ever

what is there to be worried about?
what consequence?
what isn’t without consequence?

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one life to live
one addiction to relive
find relief now
find reprieve

no other way