lost eyes

lost eyes
lend a smile
that slips itself
lightly on my lips

letting me forget
the lonely world

reminding me how far away you are
and how close your sweet memory
remains with me

i shake my head
and tell myself “this is no good…”

to think of one who has
so easily forgotten
of all that has gone by

this is my downfall.

for every moment
i yearn
for you and your all

i fall into the trap
of keeping you alive…

until lost eyes

uncloud

clearly knowing

that they would rather

be blind

with the glimpses

of your once

sweet wanting.

where was i when

where was i. . .
when i was here before?
what makes me so sure that i have done all this. . .
now again as once before??

what mistakes lie in wait…
what consequences lay their trap….
when i make the same error:

what things have outwardly changed…
only to remind within that they are the same as ever.

what souls have found new places to hide,
where eyes miss what instinct knows.

shyly i walk by those who are kin. . .

boldly i rely on those who never exist. . . .

merely i pass by all that is new. . .

only to once more pause.

edge towards that familiar place. . .

[where yawning pit awaits my usual arrival]

why

do

i

?

.

.

.

.

.

. .. ..f

. … …a

. .. … ….l

………………l . . .

knowing there is no

ending………………………………………………………..

. . .only the very beginning.

. . .once more. . .