I write mindlessly
Not knowing what i want to mean
Not knowing what I’m supposed to want
I reach out to no one
And feel no one needing me
But that’s not true
Everyone needs to not hear
Me out of chorus
Out of tune
Out of order
Out of sense
And searching for my own understanding
Because no one knows how long that could take
And who but i…if even i come to know…
Know what i really need to know?
Tag Archives: trapped
caught
The look of disgust
dripped from your eyes
but i was trapped
and he was lost
my breath caught
my gasp too soon swallowed
shame shot through my senses
but i was held in place
and he stayed lost
locked
in and out
Addiction’s call
it will only get better
more happiness, more peace, more bliss
more of that oft searched forgetfulness
you can refuse anytime you want
now, later, tomorrow,
did you not refuse yesterday?
then do just quit another day
you deserve it
for sure you do
i know you do
just once then
last time
the very last time
i will not ask again
ever
this is the last time
ever
what is there to be worried about?
what consequence?
what isn’t without consequence?
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one life to live
one addiction to relive
find relief now
find reprieve
no other way
