Can you not reveal your heart to me?
Must I delve in there myself?
I wish I could tell you…
I’m set to run,
I’ll cut off and run,
And not look back.
I’ll look obsessively over my backup plans
I always have.
I’ll recite the pros and cons,
Have a proactive case of sour grapes,
I don’t know any other way…
To keep my heart
from being taken
Only to have it handed back
Emptier than it was before.
i feel the edge threatening to crumble off
asking what will i do when my feet touch air?
will i reach for land or will i leap?
i feel my being breaking apart inside
asking will i give up or harden?
will i reach up or will i fall down?
i feel my heart letting go
asking will i trust it again
or will i just let it rot and bloat?
will i let it soar again or pin it to its place?
if i dont want it too much
will it become within reach?
if i don’t hope it will come true
does it not have a better chance of becoming real?
if i always look for a way to survive
then cannot i not share it with another?
if i accept that i will never be happy
then surely i can hope that my few moments not to be snatched away?
there is a rumour
of empty space
its hallow call
fills the breath
of room it
as it tries its
to spread its peace
the clusters of chaos
have advancedly arrived
they nudge and jostle
trilling their slogans
each wanting to
struggling one above the other
in desires to consume
“that is the dilemma when you think too much”